God Does Provide!!!

I have doubted God's provision for  so much lately and I have questioned if He even forgot about me.  People in my life have encouraged me to keep trusting in God, but I am sorry to say that words many times were not enough for me.  Even though i was doubting I knew that I didn't need to.  God says that He is my Jehova Jirha  the Lord my provider and His word is true!
     Why have I said all this? Because this week God has shown me once again that He is with me and is always providing for me.  I many times let my Bipolar become an excuse for me to wallow in my dispare but He has shown me that that is never an excuse.  I have the holy spirit within me and if I pray and ask the Lord for guidence and provision He will come to my aid!! I just need wait and listen for His voice.  Well this week I was waiting for it and I heard it.
    As I was about to give up on some special things in my wedding plans (i am getting married july 30th) God spoke through some friends of mine and used them to provide for my need! I was so shocked at the level of their generosity and I was immediately convicted of my doubt. The Lord continued to show me by bringing 2 Kings 4:1-7 to my mind:

2 Kings 4

The Widow’s Olive Oil

 ¹ The wife of a man from the company of the prophets cried out to Elisha, “Your servant my husband is dead, and you know that he revered the LORD. But now his creditor is coming to take my two boys as his slaves.”  ² Elisha replied to her, “How can I help you? Tell me, what do you have in your house?”
   “Your servant has nothing there at all,” she said, “except a small jar of olive oil.”
 ³ Elisha said, “Go around and ask all your neighbors for empty jars. Don’t ask for just a few. ⁴ Then go inside and shut the door behind you and your sons. Pour oil into all the jars, and as each is filled, put it to one side.”
 ⁵ She left him and shut the door behind her and her sons. They brought the jars to her and she kept pouring. ⁶ When all the jars were full, she said to her son, “Bring me another one.”
   But he replied, “There is not a jar left.” Then the oil stopped flowing.
 ⁷ She went and told the man of God, and he said, “Go, sell the oil and pay your debts. You and your sons can live on what is left.”
 (http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2%20Kings+4&version=NIV)

I remembered this story in the bible and for the first time it became real and I realized that having Bipolar is no excuse for staying in my state of depression I need to seek the Lord and ask for His provision.  This woman was given the amount of her need and some left over that goes beyond her need. I pray that I am blessed this way but I do daily pray that God puts in me the ability to stand against my first choice which is to wallow and ask for the Lord to provide.