well i have somewhat lost my joy in the darkness right now. Being pregnant is turning out a lot harder than i thought it would be not to mention i keep having nightmares that have been ruining my sleep for the past week. sorry readers nothing encouraging to say today. I hate being stuck in bed and waking up at 6 am puking and coughing non stop till 730. I know that the only way i am going to get through this is with the Lord, but sometimes i get weary of having faith and relying on help. And right now it feels like all i do is ask for help. My husband has been taking care of me so much and my mom gets really worried about me and there is nothing i can do to encourage them and thank them. so today as i do everyday i lay on my bed and watch movies and tv shows and try not to dwell on my problems but today the not dwelling part didnt happen. i am pouting and feeling sorry for myself. oh and did i mention that on top of being pregnant and nausous i have a cold....
Ok I have vented a bit, well a lot, but i really cant find anything encouraging to say. but maybe joy does come in the morning? But when does the morning come? Is it today, tomorrow, a week, a month? I dont know...but i will keep looking for the joy even though i feel like giving up.
...still looking for the morning....
I'm proud of you for taking the time to write when you feel so down and sick .. and being honest is good - someone else may be feeling the same way and hearing you vent might help them feel like they are not alone. I'm gonna addyou to my list of blogs I Like on my blog so that others can read and be encouraged out there! Keep on going - Joy does come.
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